Favorite Beauty Products April 2017

If you know me well, you know that there are a few things I am passionate about.

My family.

Drag Queens.

Books.

Makeup.

I love to do other things too of course. But these things, I could, and sometimes do, talk about for hours and hours.

So, I have decided to embark upon a new journey, something I've wanted to do for a long time and never had the guts to do. I know its the end of April, but my New Year's "resolution"/goal for 2017 was to start a beauty youtube channel and by dang. I'm going to.

I've been thinking for weeks, months, years about what my videos would be about, and who would watch them, and can I even do this?  Am I good enough to even be anything in the giant world that is Youtube?! I've finally decided I'm giving it a go, even if the only people who ever see my videos are my closest friends and family. I'm going to do this for me.

So... KayMae MUA is in business. My first youtube video to be uploaded this week!

I am FIERCE

A few days ago, I made a post with some inspirational quotes and mantras.

I posted this one in particular.

When I was browsing through pinterest, this popped out and caught my attention.  

Every year around my birthday I think, this is my year.  I'm gunna lose all the weight, I'm gunna eat healthy, only drink water, and eat clean foods.  I'm going to "get rid of" my anxiety and depression, I'm need to be MORE than I was last year, I need to be happier, prettier, skinnier, healthier.

This year is different though.  

This year, I won't be skinnier.  I won't give up McDonalds Cheeseburgers, I won't (totally) give up soda, or caffeine. I won't get rid of my anxiety or depression.  I won't be more, I won't be happier, prettier, skinnier, or healthier.

This year.  I will be FIERCE.

I will not be afraid to be who I am.  I will not be self conscience of my weight, hair, personality, or outward appearance. 

This year. I will be stronger. I will put on my big girl pants and stop caring what every Tom, Dick, and Harry (or Tina, Dina, and Harriet) think of me.  I will stop wondering what the bitty in the beauty salon is saying about me when I leave the room.  I will be strong enough to not care if some stranger I've never met doesn't like me.  I will be strong enough to remind myself I AM enough.  I will be strong enough to tell that ugly black monster in my head that I AM ENOUGH! 

This year, I will be braver.  I will do something everyday that scares the daylights out of me. (Even if its just talking to a stranger, or walking into a room of people I don't know) I will be brave enough to be exactly who I want to be.  I will be brave enough to say exactly what I need to say. I will not be afraid to hurt someones feelings if it means saving someone else, or myself. I will be brave, and unafraid of all the things anxiety tells me I should be afraid of. 

This year, I will be kinder.  I will be kinder to myself.  I will look in the mirror every morning and try to love something about myself, even when the world and society tell me exactly what is wrong with me.  I will be kinder to the people who love me, I will tell them I love and appreciate them. I will be kinder to the people who don't love me, the people who talk behind my back and contribute to all the nay sayings of my own self conscience, I will look them in the eye, and smile, because I AM ENOUGH, and I don't need them to think that to know that it's true.  I will be kinder to people I've never met, I will do my best not to make pre-judgements about people just because of the things other people say about them. 

This year, I will be UNSTOPPABLE.  I will not let my fear of the unknown and the constant griping of the black monster get in the way of things I want to do and see.  I will go on that adventure, even if I am afraid.  I will visit that city, even if its unknown and scary. I will go to that concert, even though its on a work night, and I might be tired, and responsibilities and ... blah. blah. blah.  There will always be something that you "shouldn't do" but sometimes those are the things you need to do the most.  We were not born to "go to work, pay bills, and die." We were born to live life and have experiences.  This year, I will do that.  (while still maintaining a reasonable amount of responsibility, because, hey, you gotta have some money to pay for those experiences ;) )

This year, I will be me.  I will be FIERCE!

Here's to #23 baby!

Kayla